“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.”
Relationship... this word has a special significance in my life . Why ? Since childhood, I always felt it missing in my life. Being a single child , I never realized how significant it was until now. Truely, today when I stand in a torrent of emotions and broken hearts and tears, I miss an elderly brother who just would put a hand over my head and say "Just loosen your burden.I'll take care of everything be it you or our parents." Sadly, I know I just can't escape and have to shoulder it all alone.
I was very small when I learnt to come to terms with life , shed away the misgivings and the harsh realities and just move on. I had sworn that no matter what ,I shall make my life worth living and be the embodiment of soul and strength and shall always smile back to life. Ironically I forgot that destiny too had other plans for me swearing to make me step back and surrender to life completely !
Friends4Ever.. I yearned for true best friends in my life. God did grant me the wish and I found blessed myself with wonderful true caring friends.But life was playing hide n seek with me. Its my bad luck or inconsistency within me , that after a small innings of sunshine and happiness, there was just tears and unfulfilled commitments and expectations all the way. The first time I suffered, I just took it that it happens sometimes but the story kept on repeating at different points of life and it did force me to stop ,think again and reflect back. Am I really worth for a relationship ?
It seems, in every relation I had been, people can never trust me entirely and I was never upto their mark or expectations. Its just not with my friends but even my parents were never satisfied :)
Yes, my trust and faith is completely shattered and I now actually dread a relationship. I was a completely positive girl , a fighter but the life has given me such bitter experiences that I find myself no longer inclined to give another shot to life !
It seems I now desire doing something for the mankind where there are no emotions,no desires or expectations. Its like searching for the quest of a true soul and happiness . May be a way to repent for my misgivings , regain my lost faith so that life may again smile back at me !
